pouring salt on the wound

ooh how it stiiings!

I want to set the record straight, clear this up before it’s too late
If only in my own head, if not for no one else...

i never asked for you...

i never asked you to be there for me
but you sought me out anyway
i never asked you to worry,
when the truth was all I could say
Im not climbing up on any pedestal
I prefer to keep my feet planted firmly on the ground
It hurts to recognize that I can’t have you
But I’ll be alright if you’re not around

the dog by my side is still in love with me
after eleven years, he still doesn’t judge me
feels like I’ve known you for a lifetime
but still you say you can’t handle me

yet you couldn’t stop staring at me...

Im not asking you for recognition
I already have it inside my head
The disease has broken in my door
But I’m still not dead

i know I’m stronger than most
somehow I always survive
don’t think I’m crazy for feeling so deeply
i can’t help if you make me feel alive
i would....
take this brain out of my head if I could...
i’d drain this blood out of my veins if I could...
i’d scrape these lungs out and wash them clean...
if I could.

these tears are like gasoline...my eyes are burning
the cold air outside is crippling the trees
and freezing the tears in the breeze

this heart is like a freight train
i’ve been de-railed before
but my gut is always telling me
that there’s gotta be more
than living in pain and going insane
my eyes are squinting
to see through the rain

i dropped the razor, unclenched the fist
that cut the skin covering this wrist
it’s a little too soon
to rub salt in the wound
i dried the tears and wiped up the blood
i’ll be alright when morning comes

A - not everyone understands creatures like us...
this is one for the clueless and naive,
the ones who will never believe,
the boys who are nothing but toys,
and the men whose ways will never mend...
and i'm a stronger one than them...
and we are stronger than them...

they could never understand,
nor should they...
nor could they...

in a cold world, they become frozen...

waking up just before the dawn
to another day of wondering why
feeling a little less than complete
on this park bench, ready to die

another cigarette before i fall asleep
another drink before i fall apart
and im stuck down in a hole
and ive taken out my heart

avoiding reasons within their lies
reading secrets within their eyes
and ive dropped them in the river
and i've shaken off the shiver

with me...they'll come apart
they will fall apart!

i won't ask them why
this is how they feel
all i know is that they...
will never see me through

I’m not crazy for feeling so deeply
would it help me feel more alive
if i could....
take this brain out of my head?

i’d drain this blood out of my veins if I could...
i’d scrape these lungs out and wash them clean...
if I could.
i'd drown them deep
and then hang them out to dry for good

these tears are like gasoline...my eyes are burning
take a deep breath before the tides start turning
the cold air outside is crippling the trees
and freezing the tears in the breeze

we will become subdued
they will come unglued
we will ignite the flame
they will become frozen.